Sunday, August 6, 2017

Still Life

Waiting
Waiting
And more waiting

sums up the past couple months of my life.

If you didn't know, early June, I hurt my leg playing basketball.
The surgery went well, but the recovery time nearly killed me. For a torn achilles tendon, the post-surgery life consists of not being able to walk properly for 2~3 months.
"You can't walk? Hahahahahahaaha"

Summary of my summer: Not fun. I went from bed to couch to another couch to bed.

BUT SUMMER'S NOT OVER YET

Sincerely,

- Jinwoo

Saturday, June 24, 2017

Getting Lazy

Haven't been able to move since the surgery - I've got my leg in a cast.

I've been feeling so lazy these past 2 weeks.

There's not much I can do besides watch TV or read.

My mindset constantly shifts from:  don't worry, just rest up this time. No need to do anything necessarily

To: What am I doing with my life watching YouTube for 5+ hours a day... I feel like I'm wasting my life.

It's constantly fluctuating.

And maybe the truth is somewhere in between. That I could be more productive with my time, but at the same time, there's no need to guilt-trip and shame myself.

Well, at least, I think the surgery went well and the post-surgery pain was not bad at all.

Sunday, June 11, 2017

Injury

Tore/Ruptured my left achilles tendon -

Happened while I was playing basketball :(

Thought the people playing behind me hit me in the calf with their basketball. I was gonna get up and yell at them, but apparently nothing hit me... scary.

"What doesn't kill you makes you go get surgery."

First, I thought it was just a minor sprain because I had sprained my ankle before (right leg) and that hurt a lot worse than this.

I go to the doctor and she breaks the news to me. Surgery asap is highly recommended.
Going into the operating room on Tuesday.

:/   is how I feel about this whole episode.

See you next week,

- Jinwoo

P.S. Sorry about the absence - I promise to keep y'all updated.

Sunday, April 30, 2017

Analogies: The Water

Ok I have no idea why but I laughed so hard at this

Some of the YouTube comments too:

"Poor guy... His face said it all..."

I think it's the way his legs break the water... omg....
Ahmad Azman - An Olympic Diver
Congratulations to all who graduated this year! Hope the best for all of you.

Even if your college experience was like this guy's dive, know that in life, there are many chances to dive. Into life. and into the water. Where there are plenty of fish. Which if you teach a man how to catch, he'll find his one true love. (Am I doing this analogy thing right?)

Love,

- Jinwoo

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Hi

I forgot to post last week
And there's no way I can make a quality post today
Anxiety is high and finals are near

Hope I can get through... :(

Til next week,

- Jinwoo

Sunday, April 2, 2017

A Look Back at this Year

Looking back at the year, it's been quite a ride.
I got to meet so many new people, share stories about life.
Literal translation: Move to Blue
It's really been a blessing I haven't reflected on enough.

A lot of people don't know this, but I took a gap year after the end of my junior year, hoping to find a little more direction in life.
The adorable preschoolers I taught during the gap year.
Things were okay for the most part during that year, but one recurring theme of that year was loneliness.

I didn't get to meet/know that many new people, and though I brushed off facebook envy for the most part, I couldn't help but worry I was falling behind in some way.
Probably drawn during class.
Irrelevant
Being forgotten
Looked down on for being a (super?) junior

These were some of the fears I had coming back. Some of you may be reading this post and thinking,

"Dude, you care too much about what others think about you. Just do you."
And while that point may be valid, (it is) I wonder,

How can we strike a balance in between having our own agenda and allowing others to shape our path?

I think it's a question certainly worth pondering over.

Am I being too general?
These past couple weeks have not been too kind for me, as the kindhearted readers of my blog have probably noticed. But when I look back the past few months, back to the beginning of the school year, it puts things in a different light/perspective. There are so many things I am proud to have accomplished this past year, and while I shouldn't sit on past achievements, self-recognition is an important part of moving forward. An essential part of better understanding the road I'm on.

And through it all, I think I can honestly say I've made the right decision to come back to the University.

That is, until finals hit. Then I will regret coming back.
Just kidding~ ^^

The nuances of life are difficult to navigate through. And if you feel like you're just barely managing, you're not alone.
Read this Till you Believe it by M.H. Clark
See you next week,

- Jinwoo


Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Caught the Bug

There's a bug going around.
It was here last semester
But it's bigger and badder this time around.
It's called I-dont-want-to-get-any-work-done-or-be-productive-in-any-way-because-it's-almost-the-end-of-the-year-but-I-also-dont-want-to-fail-so-I-still-have-to-try-itis.
AKA
Senior-itis
no-work-itis
disappointed-in-myself-itis
love/hate-youtube-itis
not-a-real-disease-itis

Hope everyone is finding ways to stay afloat.
Self-care is essential in dire times.

See y'all soon.

- Jinwoo