Sunday, April 30, 2017

Analogies: The Water

Ok I have no idea why but I laughed so hard at this

Some of the YouTube comments too:

"Poor guy... His face said it all..."

I think it's the way his legs break the water... omg....
Ahmad Azman - An Olympic Diver
Congratulations to all who graduated this year! Hope the best for all of you.

Even if your college experience was like this guy's dive, know that in life, there are many chances to dive. Into life. and into the water. Where there are plenty of fish. Which if you teach a man how to catch, he'll find his one true love. (Am I doing this analogy thing right?)

Love,

- Jinwoo

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Hi

I forgot to post last week
And there's no way I can make a quality post today
Anxiety is high and finals are near

Hope I can get through... :(

Til next week,

- Jinwoo

Sunday, April 2, 2017

A Look Back at this Year

Looking back at the year, it's been quite a ride.
I got to meet so many new people, share stories about life.
Literal translation: Move to Blue
It's really been a blessing I haven't reflected on enough.

A lot of people don't know this, but I took a gap year after the end of my junior year, hoping to find a little more direction in life.
The adorable preschoolers I taught during the gap year.
Things were okay for the most part during that year, but one recurring theme of that year was loneliness.

I didn't get to meet/know that many new people, and though I brushed off facebook envy for the most part, I couldn't help but worry I was falling behind in some way.
Probably drawn during class.
Irrelevant
Being forgotten
Looked down on for being a (super?) junior

These were some of the fears I had coming back. Some of you may be reading this post and thinking,

"Dude, you care too much about what others think about you. Just do you."
And while that point may be valid, (it is) I wonder,

How can we strike a balance in between having our own agenda and allowing others to shape our path?

I think it's a question certainly worth pondering over.

Am I being too general?
These past couple weeks have not been too kind for me, as the kindhearted readers of my blog have probably noticed. But when I look back the past few months, back to the beginning of the school year, it puts things in a different light/perspective. There are so many things I am proud to have accomplished this past year, and while I shouldn't sit on past achievements, self-recognition is an important part of moving forward. An essential part of better understanding the road I'm on.

And through it all, I think I can honestly say I've made the right decision to come back to the University.

That is, until finals hit. Then I will regret coming back.
Just kidding~ ^^

The nuances of life are difficult to navigate through. And if you feel like you're just barely managing, you're not alone.
Read this Till you Believe it by M.H. Clark
See you next week,

- Jinwoo


Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Caught the Bug

There's a bug going around.
It was here last semester
But it's bigger and badder this time around.
It's called I-dont-want-to-get-any-work-done-or-be-productive-in-any-way-because-it's-almost-the-end-of-the-year-but-I-also-dont-want-to-fail-so-I-still-have-to-try-itis.
AKA
Senior-itis
no-work-itis
disappointed-in-myself-itis
love/hate-youtube-itis
not-a-real-disease-itis

Hope everyone is finding ways to stay afloat.
Self-care is essential in dire times.

See y'all soon.

- Jinwoo

Sunday, March 19, 2017

For My Mother

Here is a song that I caught my mother listening to a long time ago:
It's called, Because I Love You, by Yoo Jae Ha.

It's pretty old, but there's something about it that makes me appreciate it.
There's actually a piano rendition of it I love listening to on repeat.
It's a lot softer and faster-paced than the original, which is a nice change of pace.

This week was a difficult one, as I missed a couple appointments, classes, and felt so out of tune with myself multiple times. I turned in an essay late, and found myself so down in da dumps. It seems like when I brood, I brood hard (is that even a real phrase?) but when times are good, I try my best to squeeze the best moments.

Life always goes on though. Through the highs and lows.

See you all next week.

Love,

- Jinwoo

Monday, March 13, 2017

Goals 101

Here are some goals I want to share with you guys:
1. Lose weight
2. Gain muscle
3. Tone body
4. Be healthy
5. Stay healthy
6. Achieve greatness
7. Eat horribly
Me at the CCRB.
I know, I know. I look different with my shirt off.

I need some work on numbers 1-6 but I'm doing number 7 really well.

You say number 7 runs counter to my goals?

....You're right.

All joking aside, I think I set some goals that run counter to fruitfulness in my life.
It's possible to have these counterproductive tasks with productive ones, but I'm only setting myself back in the long run by having the unhelpful ones.
A lot of it has to do with priorities and seeing the rewards of daily discipline.

Am I being too vague?

Okay, confession:
I've been playing too many video games recently...
Low on life.

Halp

Sunday, March 5, 2017

A Duo of Poems

Temptations
I give in -
too easily
though I know it's a sin.

He is watching,
and though I know,
I continue to do so.

His presence so divine,
never fails to shine,

Yet I -
I give in,
and always will continue to sin.


Longing
From beginning to the end
there it is again.
It comes around the bend,
here and there and then
it passes round the curve.
Weaving and winding,
swimming and sighing.
Gently arousing slumber.

You'll miss it as it flies,
back into being -
O what, what is it I am seeing?
A glimpse of the future, of love, or of meaning?
A visceral, guttural moan,
A touch gentle to the bone.

Yearning to remember
what it was all about.
Contemplating, breath-giving, life-taking.

Creation's waves at play.
Calling me, calling me to deeper depths.
If only I'd known.

You would see -
myself, my only self.
visible, unfolding, becoming
shaking free of the memories
at last.