Here is a song that I caught my mother listening to a long time ago:
It's called, Because I Love You, by Yoo Jae Ha.
It's pretty old, but there's something about it that makes me appreciate it.
There's actually a piano rendition of it I love listening to on repeat.
It's a lot softer and faster-paced than the original, which is a nice change of pace.
This week was a difficult one, as I missed a couple appointments, classes, and felt so out of tune with myself multiple times. I turned in an essay late, and found myself so down in da dumps. It seems like when I brood, I brood hard (is that even a real phrase?) but when times are good, I try my best to squeeze the best moments.
Life always goes on though. Through the highs and lows.
See you all next week.
Love,
- Jinwoo
Sunday, March 19, 2017
Monday, March 13, 2017
Goals 101
Here are some goals I want to share with you guys:
1. Lose weight
2. Gain muscle
3. Tone body
4. Be healthy
5. Stay healthy
6. Achieve greatness
7. Eat horribly
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| Me at the CCRB. I know, I know. I look different with my shirt off. |
I need some work on numbers 1-6 but I'm doing number 7 really well.
You say number 7 runs counter to my goals?
....You're right.
All joking aside, I think I set some goals that run counter to fruitfulness in my life.
It's possible to have these counterproductive tasks with productive ones, but I'm only setting myself back in the long run by having the unhelpful ones.
A lot of it has to do with priorities and seeing the rewards of daily discipline.
Am I being too vague?
Okay, confession:
I've been playing too many video games recently...
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| Low on life. |
Halp
Sunday, March 5, 2017
A Duo of Poems
Temptations
I give in -
too easily
though I know it's a sin.
He is watching,
and though I know,
I continue to do so.
His presence so divine,
never fails to shine,
Yet I -
I give in,
and always will continue to sin.
Longing
From beginning to the end
there it is again.
It comes around the bend,
here and there and then
it passes round the curve.
Weaving and winding,
swimming and sighing.
Gently arousing slumber.
You'll miss it as it flies,
back into being -
O what, what is it I am seeing?
A glimpse of the future, of love, or of meaning?
A visceral, guttural moan,
A touch gentle to the bone.
Yearning to remember
what it was all about.
Contemplating, breath-giving, life-taking.
Creation's waves at play.
Calling me, calling me to deeper depths.
If only I'd known.
You would see -
myself, my only self.
visible, unfolding, becoming
shaking free of the memories
at last.
I give in -
too easily
though I know it's a sin.
He is watching,
and though I know,
I continue to do so.
His presence so divine,
never fails to shine,
Yet I -
I give in,
and always will continue to sin.
Longing
From beginning to the end
there it is again.
It comes around the bend,
here and there and then
it passes round the curve.
Weaving and winding,
swimming and sighing.
Gently arousing slumber.
You'll miss it as it flies,
back into being -
O what, what is it I am seeing?
A glimpse of the future, of love, or of meaning?
A visceral, guttural moan,
A touch gentle to the bone.
Yearning to remember
what it was all about.
Contemplating, breath-giving, life-taking.
Creation's waves at play.
Calling me, calling me to deeper depths.
If only I'd known.
You would see -
myself, my only self.
visible, unfolding, becoming
shaking free of the memories
at last.
Sunday, February 26, 2017
Epiphanies: Part II
Coming into college, I thought I was able to accomplish everything on my own. There was nothing I couldn't really achieve in high school if I worked hard enough.
Even after failing a lot (a LOT), I still hold on to this mindset. It's horrible. I can't let go it because I've slept with it for so long and it's why I even valued myself as a person. To be capable, strong, intelligent, and independent.
I think society tells us that if we're not able to be independent, we're weak and less valuable as individuals, that there's something wrong with us, and that we're worthless.
We promote the image of the self-made man/woman, who rises from the depths all the way to the top, championing hard work as their motto and chant.
Can you believe it? This toxic idea that promotes superheroes out of ordinary people - which cause harm because of unmet expectations and constant letdowns within oneself.
Do you have any solutions? How do you come to grips with this attitude? Or, maybe you still believe you can do everything on your own. Hope my words didn't come off as belittling to you.
Love,
- Jinwoo
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| One of the intellectual feats I conquered in high school. |
I think society tells us that if we're not able to be independent, we're weak and less valuable as individuals, that there's something wrong with us, and that we're worthless.
We promote the image of the self-made man/woman, who rises from the depths all the way to the top, championing hard work as their motto and chant.
Can you believe it? This toxic idea that promotes superheroes out of ordinary people - which cause harm because of unmet expectations and constant letdowns within oneself.
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Love,
- Jinwoo
Sunday, February 19, 2017
Epiphanies: Part 1
What I'm slowly realizing are the amount of resources that I have available - not only at the University, but in life.
I have a therapist, a big brother, parents, a faith family, health, financial stability, games. This is not a bragadocious post, but just a recognition of my life's blessings.
It's up to me to utilize and make the most of every opportunity, to figure out my life's purpose as I glean from those who want the best for me. The result, I just leave up to God.
At least, that's the ideal mentality, haha. I've been making the most of enjoying games these past couple days. Which is not wrong, but there can definitely be adjustments here and there.
Hope everyone has been well!
The weather has been really nice here in Michigan. Which makes it the perfect time to stay at home and play video games. (Not)
Love,
- Jinwoo
I have a therapist, a big brother, parents, a faith family, health, financial stability, games. This is not a bragadocious post, but just a recognition of my life's blessings.
It's up to me to utilize and make the most of every opportunity, to figure out my life's purpose as I glean from those who want the best for me. The result, I just leave up to God.
At least, that's the ideal mentality, haha. I've been making the most of enjoying games these past couple days. Which is not wrong, but there can definitely be adjustments here and there.
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| Dragon Knight, one of my favorite heroes in Dota 2. :) (Yes, I'm a nerd) |
The weather has been really nice here in Michigan. Which makes it the perfect time to stay at home and play video games. (Not)
Love,
- Jinwoo
Thursday, February 16, 2017
Life
I'm so tired.
Of being tired.
I wish it would get better!
And it always does, when I get to the middle of the day.
But the mornings are just so damn hard to slug through.
Perhaps I need to adjust my bedtime schedule.
I go to sleep quite late. It may be hindering how I feel in the morning :/
Of being tired.
I wish it would get better!
And it always does, when I get to the middle of the day.
But the mornings are just so damn hard to slug through.
Perhaps I need to adjust my bedtime schedule.
I go to sleep quite late. It may be hindering how I feel in the morning :/
Thursday, February 2, 2017
On Friendship: Part IV Part II
The Case of Charlie Gordon
Flowers for Algernon is a curious, subtle, yet powerful
book. The novel follows the life of Charlie Gordon, a 32-year-old man born with
an unusually low IQ who undergoes a "smart" operation.
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| Charlie and Algernon |
There's a passage in the book which I was particularly
struck by. It goes like this:
"You've become cynical," said Nemur. "That's
all this opportunity has meant to you. Your genius has destroyed your faith in
the world and in your fellow men."
"That's not completely true," I [Charlie Gordon]
said softly. "But I've learned that intelligence alone doesn't mean a
damned thing. Here in your university, intelligence, education, knowledge, have
all become great idols. But I know now there's one thing you've all overlooked:
intelligence and education that hasn't been tempered by human affection isn't
worth a damn."
I helped myself to another martini from the nearby sideboard
and continued my sermon.
"Don't misunderstand me," I said.
"Intelligence is one of the greatest human gifts. But all too often a
search for knowledge drives out the search for love. This is something else
I've discovered for myself very recently. I present it to you as a hypothesis:
Intelligence without the ability to give and receive affection leads to mental
and moral breakdown, to neurosis, and possibly even psychosis. And I say that
the mind absorbed in and involved in itself as a self-centered end, to the
exclusion of human relationships, can only lead to violence and pain.
"When I was retarded I had lots of friends. Now I have
no one. Oh, I know lots of people. Lots and lots of people. But I don't have
any real friends. Not like I used to have in the bakery. Not a friend in the
world who means anything to me, and no one I mean anything to." I
discovered that my speech was becoming slurred, and there was a lightness in my
head. "That can't be right, can it?" I insisted. "I mean, what
do you think? Do you think that's... that's right?"
The scene goes on in dramatic fashion - I encourage you all
to read the whole book. It's great. I mean, it's really great.
But entirety of the book aside, I find the life of Charlie
Gordon much akin to our lives.
We often think that when we are able to master/become good
at ABC, that we will be praised, loved, adored. (Make lots of friends) Yet,
when reality hits, and you find that people are more often than not, selfish,
envious, jealous of success (not hard to find this out, just look in the
mirror) and the praise you so longed for isn't there, we collapse in sorrow.
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| What do you see? |
My point being: Friends are hard to come by. Friends that
give a damn. Friends who mean something to you, and who you mean something to
them. Friends who acknowledge suffering as a part of life - who don't see your vulnerability
or grief as a weakness, but as an unmistakable aspect of life. Friends who are
genuinely happy to see you succeed.
I mention sharing struggles, because that's become so rare
in society nowadays. Social media is imperfect in its mediocre ability to
minister to those who are hurting. So much of social media is about constructing this
perfect, totally superficial, image, only filled with happiness and devoid of any actual substance.*
Can you find it in yourself to share? To take that first
step and open up to others? In full knowledge of the fact that others have hurt
you in the past? Admitting that we ourselves have hurt others as well? Can you
find it in yourself to empathize with your fellow brother/sister when they're
hurting? Not just give them advice, but to cry with them? Share and empathize,
fearless of judgment/scrutiny?
Love,
- Jinwoo
"To love at all is to be vulnerable."
- C.S. Lewis
*Please forgive my railing against social media. It's just there's undeniably been a lot of harm that has come from such advancements in technology. I am, undoubtedly, guilty in these matters as well, so what I say should be taken with a grain of salt.
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