Sunday, October 31, 2021

A Day at the Blanton Museum in Austin, Texas

 





An Ode to Martyrdom

Though sorrow and pain should disturb
Let nothing but the sound of angels be heard

Though wing-ed demons should take flight
All the world's angels crumble under His might

However momentarily brief our stay
Let us go with glory on the Way.

None but the eyes of God should see
All that has befallen me

Languishing, I let out a sigh
"Glory to the one on High."

My name, who desires to know?
All for the one in heaven, my heart, I bestow.



Sunday, July 25, 2021

Parable

 

There’s not a lot to do around here. It gets dirty really quickly and no one really comes around to help clean it up. It may as well be a wasteland.

But there is one person who keeps maintaining this place. It’s a good gardener. He makes sure to check in every so often to ensure the plants that grow are cared for.

I walk over and talk to him.

     “What’s the purpose of all this maintaining? I don’t know who’s coming after, so you’re just wasting your time.”

     “Regardless, I like to tend to this garden. It keeps me occupied.”

     “What you’re saying is, you’re bored, then?”

“Not at all.” He placed his garden hose down. Every so often, he’d stop, look up from his work, and wipe the sweat off his brow. How long this man had been here I saw through his drenched forehead.

     “If I could see this plant grow, it would be my joy. You see, I have waited for this plant to grow ever so patiently. I think it’s going to bloom soon.”

     I shook my head, “But nothing has grown here for the past year. Why do you persist?”

“It is what I have committed to do.” Beads of sweat raced down his face.

What seemed like foolishness to me, the man continued to give attention to. He paid no mind to my inquisitiveness, and maybe even felt encouraged that I was curious at his endeavors.

“Would you like to see how I do it?” I took a step back. This was a stranger – someone I had known from a distance, never to approached so close to have conversation with.

“There’s not much to it,” he reassured me, noticing my hesitation. “you just dig up the ground around,” he motioned with his hands. “then you place the seed where you dug.”

“And the rest is just making sure this bad boy has enough water and care, every so often.”

“Eventually, it’ll grow to a point where you won’t have to take care of it anymore.” He stood up proudly. “it’ll get to a point where it’ll take care of itself. Like that one.

He pointed to a tree I only noticed when he had pointed to it.

The tree was old, I could tell. It wasn’t majestic by any means, and it didn’t seem like much. But there was a regal air about it. It had weathered so much, and grown strong here in this wasteland.

“That one, I knew would be magnificent... It just needed some love a care from me to make it through the tough seasons this place had to offer.”

As I reflected on the man’s words, there was a dawning on me, that whatever this man had committed to was worthwhile.

I took the shovel, and began to dig. The man helped me choose a spot, and I placed a seed into the dirt.

Years later, I came back to that spot. Wondering if the man that had helped me plant it still lived there.

I saw a green pasture. Replacing the desolate wasteland that I had been so familiar with.I almost didn’t recognize any of it.

The man came out of his house, a huge smile on his face.

“You’re back!” It was as if I had met him just yesterday.

“What happened here?”

“Take a look for yourself.”

I walked towards the garden, where he had been working and where I had planted the seed. The seed had found its home. Its branches leapt for many feet into the sky, and noticeably was a standout from the other plants.

“Isn’t it wonderful?” He stood beside me, marveling. “Who knew this would be the seed? But it grew ever diligently, almost on a schedule.”

As I walked around

The tree I had played a small part in plant, had blossomed.  

Thursday, July 2, 2020

Musings

It's been quite a while since I posted here.
I think it's good to check back in to old habits now and then.

My parents are here to visit me in Texas - I was pretty bummed before they got here, and thankfully they came and gave me a lot of support.

I'm sitting here, thinking about where I am in life

Since I got here to TX, it's been challenging to find a community.
There's not really anyone at work I connect with,
Church community is absent from this city (There is one in Austin, but an hour away)

I miss home so much.
I miss Michigan, I miss friends, and family.
It is really tough here.

- Jinwoo

Thursday, February 1, 2018

Sunday, January 14, 2018

LGM Retreat

This past weekend, I went to a church retreat with a ministry called Living Grace Ministry (LGM). I've been going to this church pretty regularly for about two years now, and I can honestly say it's helped me grow so much in my walk with God.
LGM!
There's Pastor Steve, who is one of the most honest Pastors I have ever met. He's humble and open about his past, really shows a lot of love for his congregation and occupation. Pastor Steve has helped me organize a lot of thoughts about my own past and given me advice on future decisions.
Man, Pastor Steve looks good.
Then there's David Beck, who I met first in Harvest Mission Community Church (HMCC) a couple years back but coincidentally, we both ended up moving to LGM. He is perpetually kind - I don't know how he does it. He's got a gift.

There's Young Lee, who I've known since I was in high school, but only recently really got close to him through this church and college.

I can't list everyone I've come to know, but to say that this church had a positive impact on my life would be a great understatement.

The love, knowledge, grace that has been poured out to me through this church I am truly grateful for. I will forever treasure the friendships I've made here.

More to come on this topic!

- Jinwoo

Sunday, January 7, 2018

Cool Habit

Something I've been doing recently is thinking out loud.
And through it, trying to organize my thoughts. On gray areas in my life or topics I think need a little clarification or just some good ol' catharsis.

I think of this task as analogous to cleaning my room.
It's gotta happen once in a while - or else it gets messy and uninhabitable.
Once you talk through some things that are a little hazy, you receive some clarity and a sense of accomplishment. Which in turn leads to motivation to do the things you have to do.

Try it out! Tell me if it works for you or not.

- Jinwoogle

Sunday, August 6, 2017

Still Life

Waiting
Waiting
And more waiting

sums up the past couple months of my life.

If you didn't know, early June, I hurt my leg playing basketball.
The surgery went well, but the recovery time nearly killed me. For a torn achilles tendon, the post-surgery life consists of not being able to walk properly for 2~3 months.
"You can't walk? Hahahahahahaaha"

Summary of my summer: Not fun. I went from bed to couch to another couch to bed.

BUT SUMMER'S NOT OVER YET

Sincerely,

- Jinwoo